~Don't Sweat the Small Stuff.....at least not all the time.

I love these pictures of Andrew. They were taken on a vacation to Garmisch Germany at one of King Ludwig's castles. It was a wonderful day but it was quite hot for Germany so the kids got tired in the middle of the tour. Well, Drew plopped himself down right in the middle of King Ludwig's fancy flower garden (I won't tell you that he also pee'd in King Ludwig's fancy flower garden a little later). I immediately felt a wave of embarrassment come over me and then anger. At that moment, our friends who were with us started laughing and telling me to take his picture. It was funny! Why was I getting mad? It's just grass & flowers!! Drew just thought the grass would be cool and refreshing, and I am sure it was!

Looking back I am so thankful that I laughed about it and took my child's picture. I am also so thankful that I am a child of God. The second I take a mistep, God doesn't pounce on me & punish me, but that is exactly what I was about to do to my innocent son that day. Of course there is a time for punishment, but come on Amy, what were you thinking? It was grass!! And the guy who owns the grass has been dead for hundreds of years!!! hahaha

Growing up, I did not have examples of good parents around me. But as an adult, I learn from my peers and quite frankly from reading alot of books. I still long to have a "mommy and daddy" but by dwelling on what I did not have growing up (and still don't have), I am denying my children all that I could give to them. My childhood is over, I make my own life now. I am the mom and I am going to try harder than ever to BE the mom I always longed for.

Father God, You know my heart and You know how I long for a mother/daughter relationship. I pray today Lord that You would open my heart to relationships with other women that I might find the Godly example I need and that You want me to have in my life. I pray that I will be the kind of parent to my precious children that You are to me.